maybe later or maybe not so soon.

please leave me be. i'm not a doormat. so don't wipe your issues off me. go and find your way to your redemption. don't drag me into your web of complexities. i have mine to untangle, thank you. and please do this world a favor. grow up. accordingly, of course..

click.

sa alaala ni ate S

Upang ang layon ay makamtan
Lahat ay kailangan.
Kaya't kahit na sa mga kauri ay umiwan
Ang sarili ay iniwanan.
* hinding-hindi kita malilimutan. hinding-hindi ako makakalimot. hinding-hindi.

kadugo matters

Kristine: hoy..
Karlos: hey
Kristine: musta,karl?
Karlos: kristine??? now staying at molave with the boys
Kristine: karl james?
Karlos: and teaching at the divinity school too
Kristine: molave where? molave cottage?
Karlos: molave cottage
Kristine: dorm manager naka?
Karlos: where the future pastors are. adviser
Kristine: gudlak sa imong mga boys diha.
Karlos: how are you kristine?
Kristine: am good. kristine ka jan.
Karlos: coming to term with oneself! bless your heart mah dear
Kristine: hahaha! yep. tnx,karl. ana mana basta ma-inlove. hehe..
Karlos: ah. good
Kristine: char lang uy. it's complicated. ugh.
Karlos: seems like and i perfectly understand that
Kristine: seems like what?
Karlos: that it is complicated
Kristine: yeah. sakit sa ulo. haggard.
Karlos: kisses from here
Kristine: i would prefer hugs from people. hehe
Karlos: hugs here
Kristine: tnx. karl,question.
Karlos: pire!
Kristine: seryoso ni ha? ayaw kog kataw-i.
Karlos: sure
Kristine: i'm counting on u. how do u find me? i feel so boring. am i boring?
Karlos: serious and sometimes that takes life out of the moment seriously
Kristine: i'm serious? naa koy sariling mundo? autistic? tsk..
Kristine: nalibog ko.
Karlos: i am serious too.. i think you need to loosen up
Kristine: how?
Karlos: just feel the joy and delight
Kristine: murag kid at heart? ingon ana?
Karlos: something like that-- have a heart that is ready to be astonished with small things
Kristine; pwede pa ba ko? dli ba awkward? though i find myself laughing a lot unlike before.
Karlos: now on your way. now on your way,i guess
Kristine: i bared my soul here at bradford. grabe.
Karlos: wow--i salute you
Kristine: not for love. but for my total freedom. not w/ the gender issue. but w/ the faultline of midlife & family life & being a pk to top it all. don't salute me. i'm no bigtime.
Karlos; salute for taking the step in fact the salute is precisely because of that small step which for some reason is the hardest one to take
Kristine: cge,tnx anyway. that was really hard. abi nako magbreakdown ko infront sa crowd of churchpeople. haay..

* karl went offline maybe due to disconnection. but our conversation was worth the spontaneity of the moment. thanks to FB. more thanks to bro.

finding kate

i'm now turning into a sunkissed sunseeker.

i'm now blessfully renewed.
i'm now free to be happy..

in betweens.

i avoided you like a scaredy cat. i tried to supress a smile everytime you caught me spacing out. i had fun talking about things sensibly. i secretly rejoiced when i read your mind. i liked it when you almost hugged me. but just like any other stories, i'm trying to connect and fill the in betweens. i do love spontaneity yet i hate surprises. ironic? yes. and so far, that felt right.

happy tunes

parang gusto kong magwish na sana kaya kong kantahin ang somebody loved by the weepies bago man lang ako gagradweyt sa kalendaryo ever. tsk. bubunuin ko pa ang natitirang tatlong taon ko,kung ganoon. haggardness ito.

pero sumaya ako ng bonggang-bongga ng marinig ko ang alright by the lost patrol. i heart the song. lab. lab. lab. nakalimutan ko ang countdowns ko sa buhay.. yey!

these are my songs for the year. yeah. it's alright. no worries. amen.

videoke for free

oi to the world, baby kael damir!

ito ang kapatid kong si kerwin dave at gf niyang si april joy. di pa sila kasal pero nakaplano na. sila ang proud parents ni baby kael damir. ang 1st ever apo on both sides, berdin's & the bustamante's. the baby was born last night at 10:30 pm sa davao regional hospital. di ko pa nakikita si khalil. i'm planning to call the baby, khalil. since it's the other name of kael. of course, ninang ako. hehe..

to bebzmer & aj, good bless to your household..
baby khalil's pictures later.

scarlet fever

channon hall's midnight society pioneers